Why I am still depressed
September 18, 2010
Other than a possible diabetes complication of depression, I know that I am still depressed and unhappy with my life.
Fit4D helped me figure it out completely, but I have been suspecting it for some time.
It’s the lapband. I’m going to try an unfill Monday, IF I get a half day sub. Right now, the sub system is down, and when I checked last night, I didn’t have one.
I am so restricted on what I can eat right now it isn’t funny. I can’t eat solid food before around 2:00 pm, and there isn’t much food I can eat of the solid variety. At lot of this is due to the school year, this week was awful and I still have to write an email about it, solving the problem.
The following foods are completely out:
- pork (though I can do sausage if I avoid the skins)
- most beef
- fried or grilled chicken
- vegetables
- fruit
With the exception of anything that is cooked in a sauce. Notice I didn’t say sauce added, though that can help.
I cough food up on a regular basis, no matter how slow I eat. Coughing food up isn’t pretty and probably isn’t good for me.
What really triggered things was the Fit4D people bitching about what I was eating. The phone call from the coach was very negative along with the emails. To continue with them I had to set some boundaries because the depression is worse. I’m on the verge of tears even writing this.
I honestly can’t eat any of their suggestions.