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February 2010

Seventh Year Anniversary for the Blog

I've been blogging since February 28th, 2003.  There is no doubt that this is the oldest diabetes blog.  I started it because I wanted to get better at writing.  I had been following DB Medical Rants and he said he was blogging in order to improve his writing.

My goal is still the same, write Computer Science textbooks.  Not there yet, but primarily by time.

At first, I was anamouse but was found out by Radio Free America and outed by them by permission.  I have several blogs now, under the same domain, all managed by Typepad.  I'm even outreaching a bit as I would like the blogging sites to at least break even, rather than being money pits.


No wonder I've been hitting the 300's

I've been ignoring most of what I need to keep up with to control my blood sugar properly.  Which means I haven't been testing, having been keeping up with my TDD, and haven't kept up my spreadsheet.  Probably because all those numbers have been sucking.

Well, according to the Rules of 1500 and 1800, I'm taking WAY too small of an insulin dose for every meal and my corrections are WAY too low.

Just fixed all that, put it in the pump, and am resolving to do better in the evenings. 

Might explain the sugar cravings too.


Breakthrough!

I now weigh over 40 pounds less than I did at my heaviest last year when I started on the lap band journey.

I realized I was obsessing over numbers so took a break from them.  Finally got on the scales this morning to a new low.

I finding out some weird stuff.  One is, when I obsess over the numbers they don't budge, and then I get even more stressed and the numbers go the wrong way.  Food I shouldn't have visits the house, etc.  So I'm learning to take some breaks from them.

Actually that isn't so weird, I've been warned about that from the TLC Edge people.

Also, people have been commenting that I've lost weight again, and I do think that your body has to go through a process:

  • Lose some weight.but not look like it
  • Rearrange it -- so you don't loose weight, but you look like it

I'm also seeing that the same kind of thing happens with my insuilin usage -- when I loose weight my usage goes down, but through that rearranging process, it goes back up.

Means I really have to monitor close -- I had a period last week where I was hitting the 300s and got as high as 400 this week and part of it was that I was in denial I needed that much insulin.

I'd still really like to have another 5 pounds gone before our next agility trial next weekend but I doubt that's possible with the week ahead.  Very stressful.


Last few days have absolutely sucked!

Yesterday every time I checked, blood sugar was in the 300’s.  Not sure what is going on, but trying to pull it down.

Had meeting after school on Monday.  Actually figured out how to eat dinner in public and what to eat.  Meat loaded baked potato and turn it into mashed.

Had meeting from 9:00 – 11:00 at a location off campus.  I think that’s what caused the high blood sugar, that and the second mocha, should have turned my pump to workshop setting.

Then had an online workshop after school, which was good, and we’re supposed to have a copy of it to look at.

Faculty meeting this morning and then maybe life will get back to normal, though I have a meeting in the morning I called with students, we’ll see if anyone shows up.

Goal right now is to get blood sugar back to normal and then see if I can get any weight off at all before the next trials.


Maybe not THAT horrible

While I've apparently left my blood sugar meter at home, I do have a spare OneTouch Mini from my doctor's office that I've been using -- I had it stashed in my emergency supplies and begged for two when I was at my doctor's office a few weeks ago.  One is downstairs in my kitchen, the other in my rolling box.

I've managed to test every two hours and correct which is better than the last few days.

I'm also making an effort to move my calories earlier in the day, guessing that I'm in starvation mode again.  I have a huge tax bill, insurance (both car and pet) coming up, so I'm trying to save some money.  Cutting out my McD's mochas, and subbing grocery store made mochas with the microwave in my room.  Also doing oatmeal in the afternoon, which I ought to get up and get started.


Horrible diabetic lately

Yes, the last few days especially I haven't been taking care of myself as well as I should.  Haven't been testing, haven't been bolusing etc.

I do fix it at the end of the day, and try to fix it in the morning, but I've missed a few mornings.

However, it's the first of the month, and the first of the week, and I bet like all diabetics, I'm vowing to do better.  I've just restocked my bag, and getting ready for another week.

Maybe I can do better this week.

I'm also ready to lose some weight again.