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May 2004

Insulin Usage Down Again

My insulin usage is down again. It had gone up -- I'd had a couple of sleepless nights, which made for sleepy days which always makes me eat too much and the wrong foods. Why are we convinced that sugar will make us stay awake?

Anyway, the average usage is down to 58, so I've pulled all my correction factors down accordingly.

Which will make things fun as that will bring my total insulin usage down a bit more. Which makes it easier to lose weight.


Provigil

I finally got around to looking it up in the RIGHT place, and yes, a known side effect of Provigil is increased blood sugar.

I am DEFINATELY saving it for emergencies.


CDE Visit

Good visit with the CDE. She did, however, confirm that I hadn't lost weight. I actually think I've been shifting fat around to muscle, but not enough to show on the scales. The scales at home are showing a slow amount of progress, but progress none the less.

She agreed however, that 1500 calories was too few and that what I was doing was fine. She is also concerned about the Provigil's affect on bloodsugar and thinks that might have some influence on the weight. (Provigil is a drug for keeping people awake -- but it ONLY does that, it doesn't allieve any of the other symthoms of not sleeping).

I personally think keep it for emergencies and that's it.

You know, when you positively can't sleep and as a result can't stay awake the next day, even if you have to drive.

Anyway, we both decided to blow off the sleep doctor, and I did ask her to see if she could find me a new one.


New Med Blog

Interesting blog. We've got a bit in common, I am doing an online -- almost virtual master's. We have to meet face-to-face before each test, which actually helps.

I've had border collies. There is one thing that border collies are not capable of herding. BEAGLES! The beagles bite them on the dew claw when they get too obnoxious. Got to feel like getting your finger slammed in a car door, the way the poor BC's reacted.

Unfortunately only one of the BC's was a good dog. However, I even ended up sending him off after drug dog training to be a drug dog. For a while, he was partnered with TWO officers and worked TWO shifts. Yeah, they are that intense.

The second BC had idopathic epilepsy and ended up going into statis. I didn't realize that happened to people too, but we lost a student that way this year.

And the third BC was a mismatched rescue. He's in a good home now, and doing very well in agility.

I seriously doubt that I'll be getting another border collie. Just too much dog. Besides, I like my beagles.


Sleep Doctor Aggravations

Went on a three week followup with the sleep doctor.

Oh, and the last couple of days -- since the major bad night on Sunday -- I've been sleeping better. Haven't woke up lately.

Good news
Oximeter study was excellent, never go below 90%

Gave me more Provigil to play with. I really only like it in an emergency. It only falls the falling asleep thing. It fixes nothing else.

Since they couldn't find the oximeter study, doctor and I had time to converse and he asked GOOD questions about the pump. I kinda of wish I had been dressed to show if off better. I was wearing a long dress.

SoSo News
Compliant 6.8 or so hours on the machine. And nap times showing as compliant. First, I knew I had some bad news in the 3 weeks. Second, I keep telling them I'm compliant, sad it takes data to prove it.

Bad News
Got on me about my weight. Yeah, I know it didn't change. It was 3 weeks, I'm trying to lose 1 to 2 pounds a week. So 3 pounds can be the salad I haven't finished processing. Plus the nurse just writes down a number close to what the scale says and never weights for it to settle.

Not gaining was a good thing with the lack of sleep!


Good Death

Medrants asked if a good death is important.

I think so. My father had a good death. He was diagnosed with congestive heart failure (this was 20 years ago), sent home, and was given some home nursing and equipment and basically left to die. It did take 3 years, and some of it was painful, but he did adjust well. We had plenty of time to talk and resolve issues. The only invasive procedure was a catherization, but that was his choice, he wanted to make sure why he had congestive heart failure. Most was congenital.

My mother-in-law had a good death too. She and my father-in-law were in a car accident and she was killed instantly. They had just been visiting their grandchildren and were on their way to a card show. They were in good health and she just went.

Even my father-in-law went relatively easily for him because he never regain consciousness. However, my husband and his sister had to deal with decisions. They did put him in hospice care and died a few weeks later without gaining consciousness.

However, my grandmothers didn't fair as well. For different reasons, they were put in nursing homes and had all the care needed to keep them alive. One is still living, and has been reduced to the mental age of about 1 1/2 years. It's very sad, and I wish she could die.

I've had friends deal with parents with lingering illnesses.

If I had my choice, I'd go the way the inlaws did, especially mother-in-law. I certainly don't want to spend my last days in a hospital poked and prodded, especially by strangers.


WordPress

I can't believe how easy Word Press is. Of course, Word Press was installed automagically by my server software (Fantastico) and importing my Movable Type entries was easy to.

It is much more user friendly. Blogging is much easier.

My reason for moving to this, wasn't the licensing, it's free for me, since I only do the one blog and the photo album. For me, it's frustration. Movable Type 3.0 is a dog (software wise).
This is MUCH easier.